Elv_Elijah_Wan's Blog

I don’t really see anything special in my birthdays anymore, I think there were only a few birthdays that were particularly meaningful. My 1st,12,18,20 and 21st were the only formative years. Personally I think that it’s not the date of birth that makes a person wiser or more powerful, unless, your talking about Constitutional laws. Yes, age can allow a person to make more choices; buying cigarettes, watching R21 movies or visiting  places prohibited from minors.On the contrary, age is not the primary cause in a person’s decision making, thought process or way of doing things. I’ve met people who are older than myself but act like little brats, I’ve also met younger people who are so sensible that I thought they were in their late twenties.

Every year I’ll ask myself this question:”I’m suppose to be this age biologically, but am I living the way I should in this particular age?”. Sometimes, the answer is positive, sometimes it’s negative but I know that God will shape me according to His heart desire. A fish is made to swim and a bird to fly, so what’s my purpose? I’ll find out soon!

NATIONAL SERVICE

Time, Time is such an abstract subject. Initially, I have to admit that the experience was not as good as I had imagined. Every moment I was galvanized into action! “Fall in, knock it down! Move, Faster!”. I experienced something which most NS serving males have felt before.  It seemed to me that Time was STATIC! Chaos! For everything happened so fast before I could rationalize!

I realized that God created the seasons to be in a certain Order, so that we will not freak out. Humans are able to adapt to change, but if that change was to come too soon, it may be difficult, very difficult!

Soon, I was able to calm myself down and make sense of the perpetual discontinuity of the events.I knew I  have to let go of all my fears and worries, to kneel before Him, proclaim Him as King and allow Him to take over. Once I let go; I let God! God becomes my only CONSTANT in the running streams of irregularities. No more over-reacting to situations whatever it may be.To perceive things for what they really are.If I have so much work to do that I have to stay til 9PM, then so be it. If I have to stay in camp for training and am unable to go home, so be it.

As long as I have GOD with me, even 2 hours of Guard Duty can be enjoyable!

Our experiences will ultimately shape us

Now, it seem to me that time is flowing, no longer static and arbitrary. In fact, time is flowing away too fast. Have you been to a beach? When you grab a handful of sand with your palm, some will leak away, soon all will just leak through the gaps of your palm. Similarly, time is constantly flowing away and there is nothing to hold it back (unless, you were to design some sort of time machine). So, I propose that we should enjoy good times to the fullest, to cry at the lowest and reflect in difficulty. There is always a choice. We can just choose to let matters go or, ask the correct questions to prevent and solve them. To be daring enough to ask :”Is it really my fault? Have I done enough? Was it proper?”. I assure you that you’ll find many things you do irrational and meaningless. Don’t be discouraged!

Every Single moment that your still breathing and living; is God’s 2nd chance for you!

I thank GOD that my department in Pasir Ris camp is really filled with really good people. People who are responsible and get things done properly! Tentatively, as a Signal Store 2 IC my job is done, my NS life is basically just waiting for my service to end. Everything is done and put into place! The understudies are posting in soon and it will make things even easier. That’s why I’ve been doing a lot of heavy reading, immersing myself in various subjects. I hope to finish at least half of my library by my ORD in May!

Systems

I think the good thing about NS is the formulation and execution of systems. I’ve learned about flow charts and algorithms but NS is where i see them being applied! Everything has a system! From planting churches to a billion dollar business; there is a need for systems to be  created and run by capable people.

I was hooked on creating them in my personal life, things like tagging and arranging my clothes to brushing my teeth. Yes! I have a system to brush my teeth!

I’ve seen the fruits of implementing systems, I get to have more sleep in the morning through creating a set of algorithms which start from the moment I wake up till I get out of the home. It takes me only 15-20 mins(breakfast,brush,bath,uniform,boots,rush to a bus stop), I even changed the way I bath lol to be efficient! I get more for less!

I believe that GOD wants me to learn how to create and use systems to extend His kingdom in my unique way!

Eccentricities

I think most of my close friends and acquaintances will know that I am an eccentric fellow, even when I was in Primary school people thought that I was different. I don’t act the way normal people do, my thought processes and reaction to things are different. I actually realized long ago that the things I did or am about to do will leave an impinging effect on people, whether positive or negative, it’s subjective haha!

I think normal people do normal things but Extraordinary people do extraordinary things! People like Bill gates, Tesla, Frued, Einstein, Laplace(…etc) were considered to be eccentric but they managed to do exceptional things!

By the way if you don’t think I’m weird, or if I use a gentler word, if you don’t think I’m different; then your probably as eccentric as myself hahaha! Crazy and Crazy = Neutralization!

I know that God can use the “difference” in me to make significant differences! =)

Money

As I grow older, money automatically becomes an issue. I will want to analyze and espouse on this. So what does money mean to me?

A few years ago, I read that Money is a concept. My friends, the truth is; there is actually no real value behind that polymerized paper. In other words, it is only the person that gives it the value, the paper itself is just a tool used in an economic environment.

In ancient times, people used salt, rocks and rice as currency, it was supposed to help make life better with the high quality food and tools you can get from it. But then again, why is it that such a concept is able to bind and imprison so many people?

Someone shared with me that money is a magnifier, if your a good person, having lots of money will allow you to do more good and if your a bad person, money will allow you to pursue evil. I propose a more complete theory, money though filled with magnifying properties, it can also provide so many alternatives that one will begin to love it, 1 Timothy 6:10 states that :”For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil“,having money is not wrong but loving it will often lead to ruin.

From Christianity I learned an interesting fact, the Kernel theory

John 12:24
Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.

When put into proper context, it simply means if you horde money; it’s like stagnant water, it will grow dengue causing mosquitoes. But, if you spread it, it will start to grow and sprout in many places.