Elv_Elijah_Wan's Blog

I don’t really see anything special in my birthdays anymore, I think there were only a few birthdays that were particularly meaningful. My 1st,12,18,20 and 21st were the only formative years. Personally I think that it’s not the date of birth that makes a person wiser or more powerful, unless, your talking about Constitutional laws. Yes, age can allow a person to make more choices; buying cigarettes, watching R21 movies or visiting  places prohibited from minors.On the contrary, age is not the primary cause in a person’s decision making, thought process or way of doing things. I’ve met people who are older than myself but act like little brats, I’ve also met younger people who are so sensible that I thought they were in their late twenties.

Every year I’ll ask myself this question:”I’m suppose to be this age biologically, but am I living the way I should in this particular age?”. Sometimes, the answer is positive, sometimes it’s negative but I know that God will shape me according to His heart desire. A fish is made to swim and a bird to fly, so what’s my purpose? I’ll find out soon!

NATIONAL SERVICE

Time, Time is such an abstract subject. Initially, I have to admit that the experience was not as good as I had imagined. Every moment I was galvanized into action! “Fall in, knock it down! Move, Faster!”. I experienced something which most NS serving males have felt before.  It seemed to me that Time was STATIC! Chaos! For everything happened so fast before I could rationalize!

I realized that God created the seasons to be in a certain Order, so that we will not freak out. Humans are able to adapt to change, but if that change was to come too soon, it may be difficult, very difficult!

Soon, I was able to calm myself down and make sense of the perpetual discontinuity of the events.I knew I  have to let go of all my fears and worries, to kneel before Him, proclaim Him as King and allow Him to take over. Once I let go; I let God! God becomes my only CONSTANT in the running streams of irregularities. No more over-reacting to situations whatever it may be.To perceive things for what they really are.If I have so much work to do that I have to stay til 9PM, then so be it. If I have to stay in camp for training and am unable to go home, so be it.

As long as I have GOD with me, even 2 hours of Guard Duty can be enjoyable!

Our experiences will ultimately shape us

Now, it seem to me that time is flowing, no longer static and arbitrary. In fact, time is flowing away too fast. Have you been to a beach? When you grab a handful of sand with your palm, some will leak away, soon all will just leak through the gaps of your palm. Similarly, time is constantly flowing away and there is nothing to hold it back (unless, you were to design some sort of time machine). So, I propose that we should enjoy good times to the fullest, to cry at the lowest and reflect in difficulty. There is always a choice. We can just choose to let matters go or, ask the correct questions to prevent and solve them. To be daring enough to ask :”Is it really my fault? Have I done enough? Was it proper?”. I assure you that you’ll find many things you do irrational and meaningless. Don’t be discouraged!

Every Single moment that your still breathing and living; is God’s 2nd chance for you!

I thank GOD that my department in Pasir Ris camp is really filled with really good people. People who are responsible and get things done properly! Tentatively, as a Signal Store 2 IC my job is done, my NS life is basically just waiting for my service to end. Everything is done and put into place! The understudies are posting in soon and it will make things even easier. That’s why I’ve been doing a lot of heavy reading, immersing myself in various subjects. I hope to finish at least half of my library by my ORD in May!

Systems

I think the good thing about NS is the formulation and execution of systems. I’ve learned about flow charts and algorithms but NS is where i see them being applied! Everything has a system! From planting churches to a billion dollar business; there is a need for systems to be  created and run by capable people.

I was hooked on creating them in my personal life, things like tagging and arranging my clothes to brushing my teeth. Yes! I have a system to brush my teeth!

I’ve seen the fruits of implementing systems, I get to have more sleep in the morning through creating a set of algorithms which start from the moment I wake up till I get out of the home. It takes me only 15-20 mins(breakfast,brush,bath,uniform,boots,rush to a bus stop), I even changed the way I bath lol to be efficient! I get more for less!

I believe that GOD wants me to learn how to create and use systems to extend His kingdom in my unique way!

Eccentricities

I think most of my close friends and acquaintances will know that I am an eccentric fellow, even when I was in Primary school people thought that I was different. I don’t act the way normal people do, my thought processes and reaction to things are different. I actually realized long ago that the things I did or am about to do will leave an impinging effect on people, whether positive or negative, it’s subjective haha!

I think normal people do normal things but Extraordinary people do extraordinary things! People like Bill gates, Tesla, Frued, Einstein, Laplace(…etc) were considered to be eccentric but they managed to do exceptional things!

By the way if you don’t think I’m weird, or if I use a gentler word, if you don’t think I’m different; then your probably as eccentric as myself hahaha! Crazy and Crazy = Neutralization!

I know that God can use the “difference” in me to make significant differences! =)

Money

As I grow older, money automatically becomes an issue. I will want to analyze and espouse on this. So what does money mean to me?

A few years ago, I read that Money is a concept. My friends, the truth is; there is actually no real value behind that polymerized paper. In other words, it is only the person that gives it the value, the paper itself is just a tool used in an economic environment.

In ancient times, people used salt, rocks and rice as currency, it was supposed to help make life better with the high quality food and tools you can get from it. But then again, why is it that such a concept is able to bind and imprison so many people?

Someone shared with me that money is a magnifier, if your a good person, having lots of money will allow you to do more good and if your a bad person, money will allow you to pursue evil. I propose a more complete theory, money though filled with magnifying properties, it can also provide so many alternatives that one will begin to love it, 1 Timothy 6:10 states that :”For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil“,having money is not wrong but loving it will often lead to ruin.

From Christianity I learned an interesting fact, the Kernel theory

John 12:24
Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.

When put into proper context, it simply means if you horde money; it’s like stagnant water, it will grow dengue causing mosquitoes. But, if you spread it, it will start to grow and sprout in many places.

I think I might have just “cursed” myself into having a fever and asthma attack! A few days ago, I was thinking to myself:”WOW! It’s nice to be so healthy; I haven’t taken any MCs for the past 4 months. I wonder how it’s like to be sick again!”. BOOM! I had a fever of 39 Degrees on Friday which subsided to 38 degrees. I thank God that, actually my rate of recovery is quite desirable as usually such symptoms will take 4-5 days to taper away.

My visit to Changi Hospital was an interesting one. As most of you know, erm I’m referring to those NSFs or people who enjoy queuing, JOKES =) ; that Poly-Clinics are closed on SAT and Sundays! So, I had to go to the Hospital.

Initially I had thought that it will most likely take 1-2 hours tops but it took me 5 hours!

When I  walked into A&E, the nurse took my temperature with a reading of 37.8 degrees, I was lead to an enclosed area, which in a sensewas rather reticent for me. When I opened the door, a very familiar sight appeared before me! It had occurred to me that 90 percent of the patients were TEKONG RECRUITS!

I went ahead with the registrations and preliminary checks. Sitting in the middle of the recruits and reading Sigmund Freud, I could not only read about how Freud’s brand of psychology revolved around SEX, I had also overheared the recruits discussing about the art of  “kenging”(malingering). But, I judge them not, I understand that such practices are common as certain events like Field camps can make normal people crazy and crazy people like me even crazier! Anyways I waited half an hour for the Doctor.

I totally didn’t expect that the events that was going to take place! LOL ! Subsequently, I was diagnosed with asthma and wheezing cough. No, it’s not the Pokemon Weezing but rather, a type of sound or symptom that is predominant in asthma patients.

I was then given nebulizer treatment for 45 mins! After the treatment. I waited for another 2 hours as the doctor wanted to see if I’m doing well. She asked me some question which I think I  over-analyzed LOL! She simply asked me if I was breathless and my answer was:”Mdm,what is ur definition of breathless?Ur question is rather empirical,I don’t trust my senses cuz of the fever”(I would rather be tested using a “concrete” method.Thermometers,Heart rate meters and weighing machines cannot lie but emotions can).Doc:”Haha, I understand emotions are subjective but your thinking too deeply”

I knew I was thinking too much……..Sigh………Mid life crisis? NAH!

1) Influx of foreigners

I had a weird idea, actually I have many weird ideas! I was thinking that if I’m put in charge of immigration and handling immigrants. I willactually ALLOW more FEMALES to be citizens as compared to males and the homo-sexual counterparts. In ancient times of war, many which you can read in history books, when a country wins a war and besieges another country, they will kill and imprision the males but leave the females alone. Of course, I’m not talking about genocide and killing foreigners but rather asking the question WHY did the ancients do that?

The question is simple! Biologically, that will make much sense! When the females are left alone and treated well they will be integrated into the new Establishment. Personally I believe that women should be treated with respect. The stories that I’ve read are cruel and disgusting! But anyways, the principle is that, the women will marry the males of the new power and they will in turn boast the population rate.

I think, if more foreign women are integrated into Singapore, although that itself may not necessary boast the rate of marriage or population but that can be a variable. My sister asked me :” What if these foreign women are marrying our SG men for the wrong reasons? I.E getting a citizenship”. Being a realist my answer is :”It does not matter, because at the end of the day your example answers itself, the women will still stay in SG!”

Let me set the line straight, I do not condone to Poly-gamy, treating women as objects of inducing babies nor genocide. What I am trying to show, is that, for every 10 foreigner that migrate to SG, letting 6.5 be women will be more productive.

I think what PM Lee said was quite intelligent:”If they stay SG will have more foreign talent, and if they go, we will have global contacts around every corner of the world!”

Am I Pro Pap? I believe that there’s no perfect Establishment except Theocracy but for now, I will go with Pap……..LOL

2) Homosexuality

Well, recently I’m more exposed to the realms of the “curved” way. Don’t worry brothers, I’m not one of them even though I walk among them. There was this movement, “The Pink Dot”. It’s basically a movement that condone to being Gay or Lesbian. The freedom and liberation of admitting to being a gay/lesbian without the prejudice and objections.

To me, whether Evolutionarily,Christianity-wise it’s wrong. I DO not hate the person but I do not agree to the practices and actions. Note: I did not write that religiously it’s wrong because certain religions don’t abhor or withhold sexuality, Thailand has the largest database of Buddhists but prostitution thrives in the same place. Oh the idiosyncrasy!

Ok let me substantiate. I didn’t use the moral argument because I understand that people can twist and turn to make it sound “alright” morally. Just like Logic can be twisted if the premise is wrong. Example : Men are reptiles, reptiles have 4 legs, therefore men have 4 legs!”, logically this statement is valid but is it true? Tell me if you have 4 legs and need to regulate your core temperature =)

Evolutionarily it’s wrong because homosexuals cannot produce children therefore the population is doomed. That is an argument evolutionists and atheists used to debate against Theists.

Christianity wise…..God made us men and women. Some gay christians debated and used David and Jonathan’s(not the same David and Jonathan from Hope Church, one of them is attached, and to a beautiful godly woman) example to plead their cause. I think that argument has a lot of loopholes. No where in the bible did it state that they were gay.

My main contention, once again is that I don’t hate the man or woman but the practices.

3) Building people

 People who can think 5 heard ahead of time build Condos and Sky Scrapers. People who can think 10 years ahead of time build Iphones, Computers and Ipads. But people who can think 100 years into the future build other people!

Jesus Christ is one such man! You can deny Jesus is God, you can deny His teachings but you CANNOT deny His impact on the world, and the thing is; man oh man, I don’t have the faith to be an atheist! I’m extremely impressed by teachers and care leaders! They are the ones that impact the future. If my bible knowledge is correct, Jesus said that we are going to do even BIGGER things! Amen!